Disturbed

I'm back from Weight Watchers, with a weigh in of 169 and I'm feeling 2 different ways. First of all I'm happy that I haven't gotten back to 170. Second, I'm so unhappy that I gained 4 pounds over the last 3 weeks and am at 169. It's making me miserable on some level. There might be a light at the end of that tunnel...

Instead of getting another 10 pass book for meetings, I got the new Monthly Pass, so I can go to unlimited meetings and I have access to eTools, which might wind up being what saves me. I can't be sure about that yet. It costs the same per week as the other methods, but your billed automatically. That doesn't bother me at all. It's one less thing that I have to think about.

I'm am in such a funk. I came home from my 8:30 meeting at about 9:30 and went back to bed and slept until 11:30. I could go right back to bed now if I wanted, I feel so lousy. I'm just tired. Depressed about the scale, and tired. Thank goodness I have the next bunch of days off, lots of Core food in the house, and time to ruminate over what an ass I've been about eating. Lucky me.

Sorry about the blah message today. If I'm feeling more upbeat later, I'll come back and let ya'll know.

Later

The day has not really improved to be honest. I had a fairly stressful afternoon, and it's not even my family or even business, really, except that I care for the family who is going through the stressful time immensely. I'm not at liberty to say anymore than that. It's pouring here. I'm cold, my dog is cold...and snoring.

the good thing is...I found my Cadbury Cream Eggs stash and there are 2 left from Easter. I'm eating one, in case Nytro read this and finds me and tortures me for their location....