Day 50....and where is the weight loss?

In theory, I should have lost about 15 pounds by now..but I weighed in at 181 yesterday. What the hell is my deal? I can tell you exactly what my deal is: lack of commitment...I've been "trying" to lose 30 pounds in 100 days instead of "working" to lose, or just plain "losing". I've been "trying" to stick to core, instead of "sticking" to core. It all comes down to this: When you try to do something, it isn't going to get done. When you do something, it's a lot more likely to get done. I'm half way through my 30/100 deal and I don't know (and doubt) I will make it all the way to 30 pounds, but hell, I'm going to lose weight and see what I can get done by July 13th. I've got 7 weeks left. I'm just going to ride the core wave and see what I can accomplish. If it's 10 pounds, it's 10 pounds. If it's 15, it's 15. I'm going to take it as it comes.

My other deal is that I'm sick as a dog. I've got some kind of horrible cold that I caught from my darling brother, Ian. I think I'm retaining water because of the cold meds and all the water I've been chugging because I'm crazy thirsty. I'm just glad that today is the last day of the work week for me. I've got a 4 day weekend that I'm going to chill during, and maybe finally get to play with my new GPS. ( A co-worker is going to give me a tutorial on it today!)

note: I had to re-post this post because for some reason I thought that allowing anonymous comments would be cool...wrong. I got a huuuuuuuuuuuuuge comment that was really a religious/political diatribe. If it had been short, I would have been okay with it...but it wasn't...it was craaaaaaazy long.

Weekend part 3: Saturday

Saturday morning, my brother Brendan received commendations as a part of Police Appreciation week. He's been on the job for 5 years now in Ossining.










After the ceremony, during which Brendan got 5 awards including most DWI arrests, we got a tour of the facilities. We also got to lock my mother into one of the facilities....after years of being sent to our rooms...we finally got revenge!






After the ceremony, the tour, and a free lunch (my favorite food group), my mother and I went to a surprise party for the mother of the groom from Friday night's wedding. She turned 60 a week or so ago, and since all her family was in from Alabama, her daughters decided to throw her a party. So it was more free food (love that food group!)

As of now, I am completely exhausted, as you can well imagine. I'm not looking forward to WI on Wednesday as I hit a ton of snafus this week....depressing!

weekend part 2: Friday

Friday morning we actually will get to see Ian my youngest brother. First we stop at "the wall". It's the only wall in Oneonta that is allowed to be painted on. It keeps the graffiti from spreading to other places. Ian paints here often, being an art major....here are some of his beauties.
I took this pic of the ground because it has decades worth of paint spills on it...I think it's awesome.












When we finally get to Ian, he thinks he's dying. Staying up and coughing for 48 hours can make you feel that way, I suppose. Three and a half hours in the car, listening to The DaVinci Code and Ian's coughing (I made him take Mucinex before we left)

We were home by 2:30 in the afternoon, but the day isn't over by a long shot. One of the kids I grew up with on my parent's street was getting married, so off to get a pedi and then straight to a 5pm wedding. Followed by an awesome reception...I'll have to add pictures of that later....my mother took a million pictures.

weekend part one: Thursday

My weekend has been bizarre. It began with my brother's ride home from college not panning out. We had to go up and get him Thursday night because he was also sick. I'm sure he's got bronchitis. The school infirmary wouldn't see him because he didn't have an appointment (despite the place being empty). So we went up and got him. Three and a half hours in the car with my mom listening to Eddie Izzard's stand up.

We stayed in a crazy hotel that was almost frightening in its decor. The dresser here makes me think of old lady sweaters that Stacy London and Clinton Kelly pull off of ill dressed middle aged women.


Every thing was sticks or antlers. Very frightening.














And this is just the beginning.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all of you who happen to be mothers! My father, brothers (3!), Chris, and I got my mother a bicycle for Mother's Day...and man, was she excited. Unfortunately for her, she had to drive up to Oneonta yesterday and won't be back until late today, so she hasn't had a chance to ride her new, beautiful bike. I promised I would take her out Tuesday afternoon, after work. So, until then, she gets to stare at it in her dining room.

On the diet front, things are going okay. I haven't been running, but that has to do with some breathing issues I've been dealing with. I might be able to squeak out a run this afternoon if all goes well. On the up side, I'll be getting some cycling in now that my mom has a brand-spankin'-new bike that she's dying to get on.

Tomorrow, my new GPS should come in the mail. One of my school co-workers is going to teach me how to use it. He's big into hiking and was really interested in the geocaching thing. Pretty cool. I'm pretty excited!

A new hobby?

I totally broke down and bought myself a high tech gift. I got a new hand held GPS...a Garmin etrex, to be exact. I decided that I'm going to take up geocaching. I first heard about geocaching on Law and Order: Criminal Intent in the episode "The Unblinking Eye". Very cool show, extra cool episode. that was years ago. More recently, I've been reading Christie's blog and she's been geocaching. It's got me really excited. I've always enjoyed hiking, but now it's hiking with a mystery!

Day 36

I lost .8 this past week, which makes me quite behind for the 30/100 plan, but I'm not giving up hope! I think I would have lost more if I hasn't been attacked by those girl scout cookies the week before...it's residual calories hanging around is all. This upcoming week is going to rock! I've been running 3 days a week. I've been eating better. The girl scout cookies are nearly finished and I'm counting on Chris to finish those up for me. Things are going OK.

As for work, I just had a meeting with my supervisor, and it seems that I'm going to be the only one in my department on this campus...which means I will be alone. Finally. No sighing, no freaking out for no reason, no taking my ideas to the supervisors and claiming them. I'm going to be happier (I am happy now, just tense) I'm also going to be setting my own schedule, as opposed to having one set for me. Which is super cool because before I had the set schedule this year, my department, which is scattered all over campuses and programs, used to have a working lunch a few times a month and it really brought us together. We hashed out a lot of problems with testing and stuff.

That's all I've got for now....see ya'll later!

Day 33: Outta Points

I am totally out of points...I might even be a tad negative...but I'm not worried. I could have done far, far worse. I was out for Mexican last night and did not have any crack-a-ritas...so I'm philosophically ahead right there!

Plus, I found something at Trader Joe's that might turn out to be a great 0 point snack. I haven't tasted them yet,,,but they work out to be 0 points to to the fact that they are 60 calories have have 8 grams of fiber. Huzzah!

Day 31

I'm just here for a minute or two to say that so far, so good with the weekend. I'm pacing myself when it comes to flexies. I bought some new stuff at Trader Joe's this morning including Whole Wheat Gnocchi....which maybe we could argue about being core? It's a whole wheat pasta...has 8 grams of fiber per serving...anyone want to discuss it? I'd love to hear what ya'll have to say.

And for anyone who wonders, this is what Reuben does while I'm on the computer.

Day 30!

Yikes! I forgot to bring my breakfast and lunch today! It's sitting in a plastic bag on my counter. That sucks. What's worse is that today is Mexican Culture day for the students and my office is directly above the kitchen...so I can smell whatever it is that they are cooking and it smells awesome! I might have to have sushi again just so that I'm not too tempted by the awesomeness of the Spanish teacher's cooking. Good Lord. My mouth is watering already.

Other than forgetting to bring breakfast, I'm off to a good start. I got the sugar free vanilla latter again today. So far this week, I've used no flexies and I didn't even eat the AP I earned yesterday. I think I can live like this for at least a little while.

Now, back to to work!

Yoga mat bag

Here is the yoga mat bag I made all by myself....well, I did have the use of Lotta Jandotter's book that was recommended on Amber's site (which I love, love, love! She is so awesomely crafty!) Note the pocket towards the bottom....a lovely home for my keys and gym card.

I'm at the library right now. I packed myself a Core dinner (whole wheat couscous with veggies and olive oil) and I did go running this afternoon. I'm feeling very revved up about 30 in 100 at the moment and I hope this feeling stays!

Day 29...Taking it as it comes

My official WI? I'm up 2 pounds, but I'm sure it's temporary. After all my peevishness the other day, I feel more ready to do this than ever. I am going running this afternoon (if my principal doesn't keep us past our usual release time). I got a sugar free vanilla latte this morning (core) instead of a toffee nut latte (2 points)...hey, 2 points is 2 points...over 7 days? 14 points. I am just trying to be extra careful this week. If I'm going to lose 30 pounds by the middle of July, I've got some catching up to do...and being judicious with my flexies is the way to do it.

I'm feeling totally mellow today. I'm at my desk, listening to a CD I made over the winter. I'm just in good spirits...could be that I'm wearing really comfy jeans today....who knows. It could be that I finally sat with all my sewing crap and made myself a yoga mat bag...I'll have to take pictures of it later. It came out pretty darn good, if I do say so myself, considering I can barely sew a straight line with a sewing machine! (I'll post pictures in the near future)

Thanks again to all of you who had such nice things to say to and share with me. I really appreciate it!

Day 28 The Tide has Turned

I am feeling so much better. Thanks for all of your messages...I was really having a rough day. I turned it all around though. There were 3 components to my mood turning:

• I went running for the first time in about 8 months. I think procrastinating doing something that I really enjoy and I know makes me feel better really irritated me.
• I treated myself to a massage last night. It relaxed me and the masseuse worked out some major knots in my back. The last couple of times I had a massage, I didn't have any knots. Stress...it can make you cranky.
• I made myself a healthy dinner: fresh whole wheat pasta with artichoke hearts, yellow peppers, garlic, basil and I use my good olive oil instead of my cooking olive oil so it had an extra fabulous flavor.

I also talked to Chris about looking at our collective schedules and planning out times where I can go to the gym or exercise without having to tote the dog (and in the future children) all over the world with me. He agreed that in order to support my efforts, he's got to do more than talk. So that will work out. I also figured out that if I can prep myself quickly enough, I can do a short run, and be home and showered by 4:30...so I can do a quick run even on days that I have to work at the library at 5. So I plan to run again tomorrow. I have a staff meeting, but I think I might change into my running clothes and wear sweats to the meeting. That way I can go directly to run.

I also have to make an effort to do some sewing. You can't eat and sew at the same time. Your project will get gross!

Day 27 and Pissy

I am in a foul, foul mood. I truly believe it's because I fell hard off the wagon and so I'm nutritionally deficient. I ate cookies, crackers and dip for dinner last night, and I was mad at myself about that. Then Chris came home and gave me a nutrition lecture, including minor harassment about not going to the gym. So that made me even angrier at myself, but of course, as a defense, I got pissed at him. Then this morning, I dropped Reuben off at my parent's house, and I was already in a snark. My mother then asked me if I was going to the gym today. I told her "no" and that I have to go to Home Depot to buy my father's birthday present because if I don't do it, none of my siblings would. I proceeded to get into the car and mutter under my breathe. I am in a moooooooood.

I am trying to eat better today. I have a work fridge filled with fruit. I'm drinking more than my fair share of water in hopes to flush out the toxins ( and the crabbiness). I'm not expecting anything but a gain at tomorrow's WW meeting. I can only take it one minute at a time.

I think I need to do something for myself this afternoon. I wanted to get another massage, and I've put it off for about a week. I got a pay check from the college I'm an adjunct professor for, so I've got a little cash that I could spend on myself. Maybe I will get a massage if this 'tude isn't kicked by this afternoon.

You know what? I just don't know what to do and it's killing me.