Day 21

Where are all these days getting to? I have not a clue.

Lost 1.2 at WI today. I'm averaging 1 pound a week, and that's a fine start by all accounts. I'm not unhappy. I still have 79 days left and who knows what my body has in store for me once it stops boo-hooin' over the allergies.

This past week was a decent one, and I'm expecting the next week to be just as good. I've got menu ideas for the upcoming week. I want focus on getting de-stressed so I think I might go to Rest and Relaxation yoga at my gym on Friday and then maybe a massage Saturday afternoon. Once I get the stress management thing underway, I'll consider other things. Meanwhile, I'm allergic to the world and as a result, I can't go running or bike riding. Maybe I'll get back into the weights. Only time will tell....but I'll keep you posted.

While I was at my meeting tonight, another member said exactly what I truly believe...that many of us actually have an eating disorder (usually food addiction) and we need to go to meeting just like the people who go to AA or NA. I'm so glad that I'm not the only one at my meeting who feels that way! The last time I spoke to someone about it they thought I was nuts.

The other cool thing that happened is that there is a sudden and huge interest in Core. I got to participate so much more than I usually do (at this new meeting, at the old meeting I talked a lot). Very cool!

Time for some calm

I finally typed out my grad class calendar. I am quite happy. I still have to add some things and perhaps rearrange some assignments, but the skeleton is there and that is what matters the most. Phew. As a reward I allowed myself some World of Warcraft...WOOT!

I'm still on track with Core, and I'm tracking everything so I can be a good role model for my Weight Watchers meeting, but it's getting super tough. This is where things start to fall apart for me....I start to get frustrated because I'm weighing a little heavy (it's all fiber, baby) and the eating disorder in my head starts to say "screw it, eat something tasty", while the side with WW wings, say "No, it's only fiber and water... you'll weigh even less once this passes". Usually the horned eating disorder wins out. Oh, did I ever mention that I treat my WW meetings as if they were an eating disorder support group. I don't think I have bulimia or anorexia, or even body dismorphia. I just know that changing eating habits couldn't be this difficult for people without some form of an eating disorder. It could be a stress related eating disorder. Who knows?

Well, this post flew off into a tangent, didn't it? Weird. See ya'll later. I'm going to go gaze at the snow! It's finally snowing, there isn't going to be a lot, but there is finally glorious snow here in my part of NY!